New Song

Well I was listening to a band that I had found a while ago and I noticed a song that I didnt recognize and when I played it I really liked it. The band is called Just Surrender and I know I told people about this band already but I some how passed this song up and Im glad I found it this time. The song is called “Our work of art” and its got a really good beat to it and the lyrics are really cool to, Bryan I think you would really like this song its not a soft song like a usually like.

“Our work of art”

” Blood stained sheets, What have I gotten myself into this time?

I close my eyes and I believe you, If I should die I’ll never leave you.

I wish that I could walk away, guilt rests in my hands.

I know that it is for the better, I never said that I’d compromise between fact or fiction.

There’s so much better out there than you and me, I could end this in seconds I know it but I dont dare.”

Just Surrender-

I was wrong

Ok I will admit it I was wrong and AJ was right, I think thats the first time I have ever said that before. Well any way when we were at camp we had been going to this park that was in town to play football and wiffle ball. One day when we were there the boys were playing wiffle ball and someone threw the ball towards these tables so I walked over to pick it up, and when I looked up I saw this big dog I mean I had never seen anything like this and my heart froze. I mean Im usually not afraid of dogs because I know I could hurt most of them if they tried to attack me but this dog I knew if it wanted to it could really mess me up and I couldnt do much about it. Luckily it was on a chain attached to a pole, any way I told every one to look at the dog and of course every one was in shock because it wasnt a dog it was a wolf or at least thats exactly what it looked like. And the owner finally came by and said that it was a wolf and so durring the rest of camp Gabe, AJ, Carlos and I debated wether or not it really was a wolf or a dog or what ever.

AJ insisted that it wasnt a wolf but couldnt come up with what kind of dog it was cause it sure looked like a wolf, and you could tell it wasnt a Huskie or a Malamute because the face was totally different and the eyes just man you could tell this wasnt a normal dog. Gabe said that there was no way it was legal for someone to own a wolf and let alone take it to a park and let their little son walk it around. I was possitive it was a wolf so when I got home I looked it up on the internet to see what I could find. I found out that they breed hybrids wolves, they actually breed wolves with either Huskies, Malamutes or German sheperds and what you get is a dog that looks exactly like a wolf. I want to try and put a picture on here to show you what Im talking about but Im gonna have to figure out how.

The dog we saw was actually bigger then this one but I just wanted to give you an idea of what it looked like. Yeah it looks exactly like a wolf doesnt it.

Finally Home

Well I am finally back home from a long camp at Mammoth. This camp was really draining but it was also really good because I was forced to pretty much be in charge of doing alot of things that normally I wouldnt want to do. Durring camp I was with Gabe and we were in charge of all the food durring camp and that was a really stressful job. The problem was that before we left we asked how many people to plan for and we were told that at the most there would be 40 boys and so we planned everything with that in mind all the food we bought was for at least 40 people well there ended up being 47 boys and 6 leaders so all our calculations were off and we were short food so we had to do alot of changing of things of when we ate certain things and all that kind of stuff. But in the end we always had a meal for them and no one starved or got sick from our food or at least we dont think it was because of our cooking then again who knows.

The camp itself was good Mr Heaton was with us and he gave the devotions about putting on Gods Armor and I hope that at least a few of them were able to really hear God speak through him. We did all of the normal things you do at a Mammoth camp and some extra stuff like hiking to Rainbow Falls which was really cool, to bad the water was to high and to fast and the boys couldnt go swiming. We did the bike riding and had a couple crashes that were really bad of course the most serious ones happened in my group and Gabe had to take back the wounded and I had to lead the rest of the boys by myself. We also did the rock climbing yesterday and that was really cool and the boys really liked that, although it was tiring because the 4 of us had to Balle for all the boys for 2 straight hours.

As for fishing well some of the boys did really well when we went to Lake Ellery but I on the other hand didnt have such good luck. I had one pretty good size fish on the line and I brought him to the shore and was about to grab him and the line snapped and he got away. And yes once again Mr Heaton beat me by catching more fish he caught one and I got shut out even though we really didnt fish that much.

Even after all that happened and everything we had to go through I think this whole experince was just a possitive experince and its something I will remember for the rest of my life. Because the 4 of us made this camp happen we were in charge of everything and so I feel like I have learned alot more and a couple of us were even wanting to go next year and make it alot better. Well Im really tired and I know Ive written alot but there was alot to tell haha so any ways aight I gotta get some rest.

Acoustic Song

“When I see your smile, tears role down my face I cant replace. And now that Im strong I have figured out how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul. And I know Ill find deep inside me I can be the one. I will never let you fall, Ill stand up for you forever. Ill be there for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven. And seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are’nt falling enough for us. Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you Ill be the one. I will never let you fall Ill stand up for you forever Ill stand up for you through it all even if saving you sends me to heaven. Cause your myyyyyyyyyy your myyy my true love my whole heart please dont throw that away. Cause Im hear for you, please dont walk away please tell me you’ll stayyyy.”

By:The Red Jumpsuit Apparatis

Fly Away

“If I could fly away, Ooo then I wouldnt come back no more Id turn around just to see you for the last time, See now I know hey that it wont be easy, I done fought in a battle and I done made it this far, gotta a few more feet but its still the longest yard”

Some days I just wish I could just fly away and just leave California and just go some where else. I know that sounds really weird but sometimes things get crazy and it makes you wonder what things would be like if you had a different life. Im not saying that my life hard or anything cause I know there are millions of other people who have it way worse then I do. Its just some times I wish I could just start over and not worry about all the little problems that I worry about now.

Random Post

I have no idea what Im trying to say in this post its so random and it wont be long. But tonight I was talking to a friend and he said some things that made me think about the way I have been acting. And Im really feeling like I need to change the way I act about certain things and its not going to be easy but its time for me to move on and just enjoy life and enjoy hanging out with the friends that I have neglected for a little while. This is a quote from a movie we watched tonight haha chooch this one is for you. “You love the Red Sox’s but when have the Sox’s ever loved you back?” haha.

“What if I wanted to break, laugh it all off in your face what would you do. What if I fell to the floor couldnt tell this any more what would you do what would you do. Kill, break me down bury me bury me, I am finished with you...What if I wanted to fight, beg for the rest of my life what would you do. You say you wanted more what are you waiting for, Im not running from you.. Kill break me down bury me bury me, I am finished with you.. Look in my eyes your killing me killing me all I wanted was you. I tried to be some one else but nothing to seemed to change I know now this is who I really am inside. Falling from myself, falling for a chance. I know now this is who I really am. “

School

Ok I know Im really weird and I know some one who is gonna pop off on me for saying this but I miss school haha. Yeah I know every one is like what are you insane why in the world on your summer vacation would you miss school. Well I dont really know what the reason is but I think its because I really like Cal Poly I like my major and Im excited to meet new people, I like the way they teach classes its alot different then what Im used to and its forcing me to break out of my shell a little bit. I did alot of things this last quarter that before I didnt think I would be able to do. So I guess Im just looking forward to going back to school once the summer is over. Dont get me wrong I like being on vacation but things just dont feel right if any of you know what I mean yeah I just wish things would go back to normal.

I Miss the Snow

Today I realized how much I wish it was winter again and there was snow up in Wrightwood. Not because its hot but because snow boarding is something I love to do and its where I finally feel free from all the stresses of the world. I love the fact that if I wanted durring the winter I could go up at night and just go and there wouldnt be huge crowds. I was hoping that going to the beach would help but I havent had much time to get out there with my busy schedual this summer. Maybe after this week I can tweak my schedual a little and make it to the beach at least a couple times this summer. One of the best parts of snow boarding is if you go to the top you can just chill and take in the amazing view from up there. And for a little while you can forget about people yelling at you or stressing out about every little thing that is wrong in your life and just enjoy Gods creations.