Back In School

Well today was my first day at Cal Poly and I will have to say it was an interesting experience. First of all the class rooms are alot like Citrus and actually they seemed alot smaller. My classes will keep me busy for sure. I think I have two papers both like 10 pages each and a bunch of other stuff due in a couple weeks so its not like Citrus in that regard. All of my teachers seem cool nothing to crazy about them they are pretty straight forward about what they expect and it isnt to outrageous.

On a side note Andy had a post a little while ago on how special some peoples eyes are. Why he deleted it I have no idea because it was good. Im going to be seeing alot of new faces at Cal Poly and so far I havent been let down. But I think eyes are really special cause I know for me I could just stare at some peoples eyes forever and never get bored and just be in awe at how amazing they are.

I kiss Dating Good Bye

Well not really, one of my biggest issue is my fear of being alone and never finding that special someone to spend my life with. Recently with the ending of some close friendships this has caused some serious turmoil in my heart. I begain asking God why would you put this person in my life if it was to mean nothing and then I started to get bitter. Until last night when I decided to fix things not on my own but with Gods help. I had read the books by Joshua Harris “I Kised Dating Goodbye” and “Boy Meets Girl’ both really good books. I really liked what he had to say and so I started looking up some things on the internet. And I found the church website that he is a pastor at and I kept looking closer and I found they actually have the messages recorded on the website and you can listen to them alot like we have. So I looked up some messages from Joshua that I thought I might get something out of and I came across two. One he was talking about Courtship and kind of how you go about it. The other he was talking about relationships and what happens. But the one thing that hit me out of all of it was he kept saying that no matter what God had to be enough. And that made me think why am I putting a relationship above God. I was searching for something that would fullfil my every desire and I thought being in a relationship would do that. But it doesnt, there is only one thing that can do that and that is God. So that night I went and prayed and asked God for help to take away the pain that was in my heart. And to comfort me and give me strength to not be worried about when or how a relationship would happen. Im still working on this and the desire isnt gone I still have a strong desire to have a family some day but I know that even if I dont have a family it doesnt matter because I have God and that is more then enough.

New Website

Ok well this is gonna be my 3rd blog. I cant seem to find one I really like above all the other ones so I figured I would give this one a try. It seems more organized and fluid then the other ones but we shall see. This blog is gonna be about anything and everything thats going on in my life and sometimes it can be pretty crazy so hopefully I dont bore any one who reads this..

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